Monday, May 18, 2015

The signal has been lost

How do you revamp a blog that's been let down so many times? It's been two years since I last posted here. I've moved to the suburbs, watched my kids grow, and now I have a kindergartner and a 4-year-old. So much is different, and yet, laughably, so much is the same. I'm back to where I was before, though in reality I never actually left. Overwhelmed, sleep-deprived, overworked, under-appreciated.

From the outside, things really seem to be looking up. They're not. My own facade is cracking, my motivation waning, and my desire to ESCAPE is escalating. I know that's not good. I probably just need a good vacation. And a housekeeper. A chef/nutritionist. Personal trainer. A nanny would be awesome too. And a secretary. But honestly, I'll settle for a vacation sometime this summer.

There's a decent chance I won't get one, however. For starters, we gave in and became a two-car family in December. The Versa had one payment left, and we were struggling with suburban family life, two kids, and one car. And we all know how much I've wanted a bigger family. So in December, we packed up the kids, dropped them off with my parents, and went car shopping. We returned a few hours later with a minivan.